While I'm Waiting

“There is no one holy like the Lord; there is no one besides you; there is no Rock like our God.” 1 Samuel 2:2

I’m tired, moody, and cranky – and, until yesterday afternoon, I didn't realize why. November 2, 2005 is a day I’ll never forget; that’s the day we found out that God had blessed us with a miracle. That was the day we found out that I was pregnant. And it didn’t dawn on me until yesterday that we were coming up on that three year anniversary.

Time and time again, people ask us how we do it – how do we continue to face each new day after something as traumatic as losing a child? The answer is simple – we trust God. We trust God in the plan that He has for us. We trust that through Gus’s death, God was glorified. We trust that God will give us the children He wants us to have. This is how we deal with the pain; this is how we push forward. It's not easy though. We aren’t perfect and many times I feel lost, disappointed, and let down by God. But it is in these weak moments that God continues to remind me of His promise and love for us. In a way, He gives us our mini-rainbows. So, it wasn’t a surprise that when I saw the movie “Fireproof” this past Saturday that God gave me another reminder to patiently accept the life He has given me through the form of the song , “While I’m Waiting” by John Waller:

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

Several months after losing Gus my father reminded me off my name and my biblical namesakes. No intention by my parents I’m sure, but I am named after the two most well known barren women of the bible, Sarah and Elizabeth. Both of those women waited a long time for God to answer their prayers so I, too, will wait. I’m still working on the patience part, but I have absolute confidence that God is bigger than any trial, sorrow, or pain that I face and He won’t let me face ANYTHING alone. I love Him completely and I know that He hasn’t forgotten, nor will he ever forget about me. Faithfully I will wait, yes, I will wait.

~Sarah E. Rose~